my adopted one

my dearest most tender kitten,
these fragile bones would ache without you.
all day long i would go on knighting pseudo-esque, but you...you unshackle me.
you nudge me towards the edge of the limb, begging me to fly.
begging me to use my wings.
and mind.
and heart.
and sense of smell.
you are not afraid of my tears, and you hold me like the child you never had, the child you wanted, if only to take away her pain.
my sweetest blue lighthouse,
igniting the path which i should inhale.
guided to the way by the glistening wet on your face,
your soothing touch,
and your innocent brown doe eyes.
doll eyes that anguish to feel and moan for assurance.
but only remain cold.
and dead.
inanimate and
frozen by the imminent choice on blood.
where is your purr?
where is your heartbeat?
come, curl in my lap, and sigh.
i stoke your head,
memorize your features,
kiss your brow,
and whisper consolation.
you are beautiful.
so unbelievable beautiful.
how can they not see?
how can they harm my little sparrow,
when she lives and dies for them?
then your eyes leak salty water that floods my chest.
it seeps into my shirt, into my heart, out of my soul-windows.
let me rock you to sleep baby adelaide,
my little girl with pleading brown eyes that never was told just how noble and good she truly is.
my adopted anything.
shhh.
shhh.
you are safe here.