This hurts me more than I can stand to say in just one sitting

I don't know how to handle myself. This unsurity and pain is so prevalent, always creeping around the corner. I even find myself literally running from it. Like I can't stay in the same place for fear my demons will find me. I want to be free, yet am far too proud to hide. So I skip away. The kind of skipping done when in fear. It satisfies everyone, but my heart palpitates inside with terror. I apologize if I fly from you. It's all I know how to do at this point.

"I'm going away for awhile, but I'll be back don't try and follow me."